As we progress with this work and deepen our understanding of the subtleties and complexities of our incarnational journeys towards graduation we uncover more and more of ourselves at the important junctures and transitions that we once assumed were administered by remote angelic entities and divinities.
We discover that there isn’t just the “you” on trial for your shortcomings as you slowly pay off your earthly debts, but another “you” who flies about giddy with pleasure and excitement every night during sleep and sometimes visits the loved ones you grieve during the daylight hours. And there are other “yous” living in different epochs and societies, struggling with their problems and making their contributions. And yet another “you” who never left home, not for one microsecond, so comfortable is she with the bliss of omniscience and omnipresence, preferring to dispatch a series of explorers into the realms of density and darkness.
Lately we’ve been accommodating ourselves to the notion that one of these yous makes many of the major life choices before entering the drama down here. We’re coming to understand that much of the challenge, anguish and danger we wade through is carefully selected to expose us in ways we either have never faced before, or did face, but as we say, kinda flunked.
Of course, many devoted religionists will say that this “you” of whom we speak is actually God, whereas we feel it is that part of us closest to divinity. While I don’t see that disparity changing anytime soon, it does speak of a certain similarity of outlook which quietly belies our oh-so-apparent differences.
I was pondering these issues as I watched a recent BBC drama (“Exile” w/Jim Broadbent & John Simm), where, as a final act of anger and disgust, the protagonist spat into the open grave of the man who had forcefully abused his unknown mother, causing his conception and later adoption. This act was the culmination of much personal investigative work into a sex abuse scandal at a local mental institution many years before.
Whilst the drama was consistently well scripted, acted and dramatically convincing, I couldn’t help but wonder how that man might have reacted had he known of all the research into the between-life state that has given us so much more understanding of the wide variety of life choices available to the incoming soul. That research, expanding dramatically these past few years, has led us to feel that very little of consequence is left to what the old paradigm called “chance”. While there are many questions left to be answered, the picture being built is one of careful planning and choice predicated on past failures and fresh challenges.
Various qualities need to be developed at every stage of the unfolding, sometimes it’s courage, sometimes restraint, sometimes giddy emotional indulgence and others strict adherence to rules and regulations. When souls are young, inexperienced and headstrong, obedience to established authority is required, but later, when those same souls are mature and responsibly creative, traditional authorities need to be ignored. And when authorities are corrupt, they need to be overthrown. As tribes struggle and coalesce into nations various qualities need to be developed and then released. There are no hard and fast rules for all creation, other than maybe constant change. Free thinking flexibility seems to be the guideline that comes up over and over again. What was wise and maybe sacred in one epoch may be foolish and short-sighted in another.
Again, whilst the majority of incoming souls at this advanced stage of Gaia’s growth take “time” to plan their course work, and fit into a family and nation suitable to their needs and challenges, there are some young hotheads who rush back into incarnation, eschewing advice and warnings, so desperate are they for the thrill of of physicality. Souls like that can, and do, end up in the wombs of poor unfortunates with little chance of any kind of life enhancement. Often because that’s all that’s left after the good pickings are gone.
Obviously, while some careful souls will actually choose an awful situation to be born into, just for the challenge of struggling upward and out, most of us have advanced beyond such. When I say “most of us” I am, of course, speaking to that amorphous group of mature and older souls who have helped map the territory by participating in regression work over the decades. As young souls tend not to be interested in such arcane activities, we have but the little information uncovered by those who would go back far enough to their days as a young soul and report on their hasty choices and afterlife remorse and huffiness (Charles Breaux’s “The Way Of Karma” is particularly good in this regard). And as such we are forced to extrapolate from the patterns so far uncovered.
Will the appalling and tawdry dramas like the one mentioned above continue as long as there are souls willing to undergo such trials to cobble together a character out of such grim raw materials? Unlike the sunnier of new-age voices who predict the ascension process will wither such situations, I tend to think so. When we look to the countries tearing themselves apart in vicious civil wars around the globe we have to assume only young souls careless of weighty karma would supply themselves so unwittingly. When I turn my inner eye to some of these countries I see souls rapidly returning from vicious deaths to child soldierdom in appalling numbers, with tribal affiliations as the unbreakable bond and hypnotizing glue.
When you read in old esoteric texts of the powerful hold “folksouls” can have on their folk, as I have in my formative years, look to these trouble spots around the globe where the individual essence is repeatedly sacrificed on the altar of tribal gods and demented notions of religious purity. To provide a reference point, let me mention the British folksoul, of which I am more familiar. It expresses itself more these days in sports such as soccer, as opposed to the days of 1914 when millions mindlessly flocked to the seemingly pointless slaughter. As such it is typical of many of the European folksouls, now resigned to a lesser role, while those of south American countries are currently in the ascendent.
As I communicate with other explorers and researchers in this field, we’re cheered by how much has been uncovered in this last century, particularly the last fifty years, but we are under no illusions as to how much there is yet to be revealed. And, as such, further revelations may render my above speculations close to redundant. Certainly our understanding of the reincarnation cycle, in its now seemingly infinite variety of patterns, has deepened greatly over what was considered cutting edge as recently as 1980, when the notion of planning your incarnation, without the controlling oversight of folk like The Lords Of Karma, so beloved by the early Theosophists, was fresh and new.
What’s cutting edge now? Well, for my money, it’s much as I indicated in More Adventures In Eternity: the understanding that from Higher Self, which we truly and indisputably are, if only in microcosm, all incarnations, with their sufferings and joys and learning, are happening simultaneously, and that somehow, the progression we feel as “souls getting smarter”, is an illusion evolving out of the dramas of history, so predictably linear to our normal mode of perception, and that somehow Higher Self is already enlightened from experience on other planetary systems and yet is willing to give that up temporarily to undergo the specific educational path designed for Gaia and her team.
Certainly when I identify with “Gordon” and look at the past lives I feel I’ve uncovered so far, I do feel like, if not the wisest, then one of the wisest. But when I merge with Higher Self, that intelligence tells me that in each “tryout for the team” I decided beforehand how much soul wisdom I would bring with me, the 30%, 50% or 70% referred to by other between-life researchers, so that whatever amount I manifested in any “tryout” was not what was actually available, but merely what was “borrowed” from the reserves in Higher Self.
Whether others, or many others, will corroborate this insight in the years to come, remains a great fascination for me. That is, this me writing this.